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November 16th, 2005
04:04 pm - Two in one day...
Today would have been their one-year wedding anniversary.
It just adds up, doesn't it?
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07:02 am
Seems like I only get around to updating this thing when I'm depressed...
"I'm dying inside and nobody knows it but me; I'm crying inside and nobody knows it but me"
Help?
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March 20th, 2005
08:33 pm - Empty inside...
I've moved into a state of emtional numbness...
When so much is going on, how can I feel nothing?
Please?
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Current Music: The little "beep" that MSN messenger makes...
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March 15th, 2005
03:57 pm - Nothingness
I feel like I'm falling apart and no one is left to pick up the pieces.
No one even notices that I'm not all here.
That is all.
~That's the secret to life... replace one worry with another. (Charles Schulz)~
Current Mood: confused
Current Music: I Don't Know You Anymore - Savage Garden
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February 9th, 2005
10:19 pm - Wow! Two updates within a week....
Yeah, life kinda sucks right now, so I am going to update about my fish. I've been doing a lot of homework lately to occupy my mind, and when I say "do homework", I mean "stare at my fish". Thus, I've been noticing a lot of peculiar habits they have.
They say that when two people live together, they develop similar habits. It must be true for fish, too. I would not be suprised if each of them did their own weird things, but they seem to synchronize their movements, and to have developed the same very weird habits. Now that I think about it, these many not actually be weird habits. Maybe all fish do these things, and I was just ignorant. All you fish mommies and daddies, let me know...
Both of my fish like to swim vertically. Most often, they face up toward the surface of the water and move about sideways, never righting themselves. I've even seen Baxter (my albino goldfish) do vertical flips while swimming like this. I keep waiting for one of those dolphin-like tornado spins.
I just noticed that they were swimming (normally) in circles around the bowl with Bailey following Baxter. Maybe she wants something from him? LOL? This has been going on for like 5 minutes now.
Also, I don't think they eat. Well, I know they do, but this is really weird. When I put food in the bowl in the morning, the don't touch it, but later in the day, they start to suck on the rocks in the bottom of the bowl. Maybe some sort of fish food residue has collected on them, and they like that better than the real food? Any ideas guys?
Both of them like to go to the top of the bowl and they appear to be drinking the water. One day, I heard this faint little popping sound like bubbles popping, and Bailey was doing this drinking thing. The next day, Baxter was doing it with her. They are doing it now, actually. I didn't even think fish drank water. If they are drinking, why do they go to the surface of the water to drink, when water is everywhere around them? It kinda seems like they might be trying to breath air, but I would like to think that's not the case...
Well, enough about my fish. I sincerely hope all is better in the world for all of you than it is for me right now.
Must. Sleep.
~Dwell not on thy weariness, for thy strength shall be according to the measure of thy desire (Arab Proverb)~
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Current Music: Fly Away - FFH
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February 4th, 2005
08:32 pm
Ask me four (4) questions. They can be anything you want; nothing is off limits to ask. I will be as honest as possible when I answer. Do the same thing in your LJ and see what people say. Hope all of you participate!
~The truth is rarely pure and never simple. (Oscar Wilde)~
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November 3rd, 2004
10:02 am - Miss me yet?
Hell has frozen over. I am updating.
I only have one thing to say about the election: America, you don't know how thankful you will be for not electing Senator Kerry. You really don't.
My Biology lecture was cancelled this morning, due to "professor illness." I can't decide what I think about this. While I enjoy the fact that class was cancelled, I do not enjoy getting up at 8am for no reason. Being a crazy busy college student, I found some studying to occupy that hour, but I could have used an extra hour of sleep to make up for how late I was awake last night.
I am going to Flint this weekend. To see my boy. He was home this weekend, but I miss him already. Yes, I am a big pile of girlie mush. Deal with it. Although, I do have a gripe. Yesterday, we were having a conversation about how our days were going, and on three different occasions, he went out of his way to hide from me the fact that he was studying with a girl. He mentioned that later in the day, he would be studying with "a friend." By using those words, I began to think that it was a girl, but to avoid sounding jealous, I asked him simply if he and the friend study together often, and without correcting my use of the pronoun "he," he replied, "... my friend will be coming to the house later and we will study for about a half hour." He conveniently avioded the pronoun "she." Now, all of you out there know how much I care about Derek. My gripe here is not that he was studying with a girl, but that he felt the need to hide it from me. I have confronted him about this, but for some reason, I am still not satisfied. I trust him completely when he says that his girl friends are just friends. I know that I am the one he comes home to see and I am the only one he loves as he does. I asked him outright if he did what he did because he thought I would be upset and he answered that he did think I would be "frustrated." Honestly, I did feel a tweek of the green eyed monster at the thought of him studying with a girl, but I also feel it when he goes out with the guys. No more so with a girl than with the guys, however. But I don't think I was really jealous. In fact, I think I SHOULD feel what I felt. Jealousy is not a matter of lack of trust for me. I trust him with all my heart. For me, I just get a little jealous that he is 200 miles away and the people there get to spend time with the man I love and I don't. It just doesn't seem fair sometimes. I hope he feels somewhat of the same thing when I go out with Danny, or Brett, or Chris and Ben, or any of the guys from school. I means that he wants to keep me. Anyway, when I talked to him about it, he readily admitted that he did something wrong by trying to hide it from me and promised completely open communication in the future. I just want him to understand that it is far worse to hide the truth from me, than to tell me the complete truth and have me be jealous. We need to be honest with eachother, and that is the bottom line.
As a side note from the above predicament, this is the first time that I have been able to have a conversation like this with a boyfriend, and not have the situation turned around so that it somehow my fault. He was very quick to say that he made a mistake and that he was wrong. As long as this goes both ways in our relationship, I see this as a very good sign.
Well, lots of things have changed since I last updated, but I see and/or talk to most of you every once and a while, so I don't think I need to write it all down. Some updates, though...
College life is going ducky. My roommate and I get along fine, and I am loving my dorm. I am pretty busy most of the time, but do not feel too overwhelmed. I have two late night of cramming for exams and writing papers, but faring well, all things considered.
I am involved in an intense Bible Study through Campus Ministries and InterVarsity Christian Fellowship. It is a great group of people and I was introduced to the OIA form of Bible study, and I am finding it very helpful. This semester, we are studying the book of Acts, and I pull so much out of my study each time. I just can't wait to get started and never want to end. We always have an excellent time of fellowship afterwards and have found in my group an amazing prayer group and accountability partner. For the first time since everything that happened with my church at home, do I feel my relationship with God actually growing, and not just sitting stagnant. The Sunday night worship services are amazing as well. The dynamic is totally different than anything I have ever experienced. EVERYONE is there on their own free will and is eager to praise and worship God. It is totally unexplainable how God-filled that room is each week.
Mom and Lex are getting married. Although I know they love each other, I can't help but wonder why they didn't get married before. Mom has tried to explain it to me, but I have concluded that it is something I can't understand without being in her shoes.
This leads me into an interesting situation. Mom asked me to find them a minister (because they are Catholic and don't want to get their previous marriages annulled, and that I have connections to the pastors at my church, they asked me), and my very first thougt was my youth pastor. But, here I am in this predicament with my church. Ever since what happended with Richard, I have been avoiding church. I just don't want to see him there. In that time, some crap went down with church poliltics and my youth pastor left to go to a different church. Well, I called him up to ask him, and he said that he would pray about it and get back to me within the week. It is now been almost two weeks and no response. That is beside the point, though. I was was not invovled in whatever happened, but I do know that it had something to do with the youth pastor (Bob) and the senior pastor (Mike) not getting along. We had had an interim pastor for almost a year and just recently hired pastor Mike. His wife was the youth pastor at his old church and I think that that was the source of the problems - her trying to take over what pastor Bob had worked so hard to shape. Now, my second choice to marry Mom and Lex would be pastor Mike (only because I have not known him as long), but not knowing what happened with the two pastors, I don't want to ask them both and have them find out that I did so. I guess, if I don't hear from pastor Bob, I will just settle for their state marriage in the court. It's what they wanted, but I don't like it, so Mom said that if I could plan something simple, they would have a very small church ceremony. Lex can't stand for more than about 20 minutes, so a "normal" ceremony would be out of the question, but I was insistant to Mom that a ceremony can be small, simple, and "abnormal" but still a classy wedding.
Speaking of Lex's health, he had two teeth pulled earlier this week. That was the last step required before the translpant can take place. He is now on call to recieve notice that a liver is ready. Basically, where he is on the waiting list, the first person to die with his bloodtype will be the donor of his new liver. So, UofM health center could call anytime and he has about 8 hours for them to get the new liver in him. It would be a 4 hour drive to Ann Arbor, about 2 hour surgery to open him up. The point is that anytime of the day, we have to be prepared to book it across the state. I wonder how I am going to handle that with my school schedule. I can't imagine NOT being there for the surgery, but I don't know what I am going to do when the time comes.
I think the thing with Danny has been settled. For now. I think that when he and I started talking again a while back, he had hopes that he could win me over and that I would do something about my relationship status and somehow become "available." At the very most, he was able to raise the question of "What if?", but I cannot justify hurting what Derek and I have for something that I am so unsure about. Danny is totally not my type and while I am attracted to him, he would have to be (excuse my language, but) DAMN GOOD to beat Derek out. It would take a lot, more than what I am beginning to think any human could do, to treat me better than Derek does. Anyway, when Derek was coming home, I mentioned it to Danny by saying that Derek was coming home and asking if he wanted to meet him. He asked me who Derek was (I guess he didn't remember my boyfreind's name) and I told him. He quickly ended our conversation and has not called me since. It's really a bummer because I value our friendship (or valued?), but I guess if he has the mindset of "Girlfriend or not a freind at all," then I probably shouldn't be wasting my time on him anyway.
Wow, this has been a pretty long entry. If ya'll pester me enough, maybe it will be less than two months before I post again.
~Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about the things that matter. (Martin Luther King, Jr.)~
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September 23rd, 2004
11:54 pm - Brett, this one's for you!
So, some, or maybe just one of you, is a little concerned about my whereabouts, so I figured I'd post to let you know that I am at least still alive.
As far as the lack of posts go, I am a college student. Give me a break. When I am in my room I am either sleeping or doing homework. When I am sleeping, I don't really know how I can be posting. When I am doing homework, I often turn my computer off or do my best to ignore it and stay focused. When I do go to fun sites (as opposed to sites for homework), like Livejournal, I do so only to quickly update myself as to the lives of my friends and sister. I honestly don't have time to update. Note the time on this one... Anyway, on the off chance that I am not doing homework, I find other things to do, outside of my room. A rousing game of euchre in the greatroom with strangers, whom as they become regulars, I am getting to know quite well, is a good example. There are always late night Nick-at-Nite marathons in Sara and Grace's room, too. Those are always fun. Especially with a 9am Bio lecture (ahem).
Well I hope you understand my situation and also that I need sleep for said Bio lecture. Also, for those who miss me, feel free to use the extensive list of alternative contact info that I sent to all of you before I moved to school.
Catcha all later (or sooner, if so is your wish).
~How vain it is to sit down to write when you have not stood up to live. (Henry David Thoreau)~
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August 24th, 2004
11:06 am - Moving out and moving on
I cleaned my room yesterday. I mean really cleaned it. I even vacuumed my stuffed animals. And made my bed. Now it looks like nobody lives in it. Wait. As of tomorrow, no one will. I move out tomorrow morning. Not just spending a couple of nights away from home - this is moving out of the house for nine months at a time. Wow.
When I cleaned my room, I got rid of a lot of stuff, too. I finally got rid of everything Richard related. I was keeping it, like the pictures and stuff, because I was in them, too, and I looked happy, but there is NO happieness left. So I ripped them up and threw them away. One of them I couldn't get out of the frame, so I threw the frame away, too. And I don't even miss the frame. The only thing I kept are the stuffed animals he gave me. I don't know yet if that is a bad thing or not, but maybe someday I'll send them off to Salvation Army or GoodWill or something. It's not that I'm not ready to get rid of them, it's just they are perfectly good stuffed animals.
I also ripped down my Pooh pictures and put away my puzzles. I'm not sure what posessed this, but I feel like I am moving on, so I got rid of some of the kid stuff. I hope I'm not forcing myself to grow up, cause I definitely don't want to do that. It just felt like the right thing to do, so I did it. Impulsive, perhaps, but what can you do?
I just got done sending out a mass email containing my new contact info at GVSU. If you were missed, it was only because I didn't have your email address. I still love you. Just leave a comment telling me that you would like it, and how I can get it to you, and I will do so as soon as I can.
Well, I think that is all for now. I have a feeling things are about to get hectic, so be patient with me. Love you all!
~Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind. (Dr. Seuss)~
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August 21st, 2004
06:35 pm
I just thought this was way too funny. I really don't have the time or patience to really post right now. Don't have much to say. You know, I'm in a really fun and exciting place in my life right now and things are going, well, almost great, and work is done, and school is starting, and... Well, I've been trying to avoid the questions about how I feel about it all and am I excited or am I nervous or am I scared or sad or whatever else kind of emotions there are. I'm feeling them all, okay? Even I can't explain it, so please stop making me try. Thank you.
And to the JJ crew, I leave for school in like 3 days, and even though I am not leaving forever and am only 20 mins away, don't make me miss you. Let's get together, okay?
~The heart has its reasons which reason knows nothing of. (Blaise Pascal)~
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July 12th, 2004
06:17 pm - On a roll...
If there is someone you can't stop thinking about, post this same sentence in your journal.
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Today went well. It seems that the farther into summer we get, the easier it is to get up at 7:00am or earlier to be at work around 8:00. My goal this morning was to be to work by 9ish. My internal alarm clock woke me up at 7:00 and I showered, got dressed, and was settled at work by 8:15 and I wasn't even complaining about it. I guess if I get used to working early, it will be super easy to get up for my 10:00am classes in the fall. Or I'm just blindly misled. Either works for me; I'm an easy going kind of girl.
Even though it's semi-easy to get up and go, it IS NOT easy to stay there. I am doing the most boring work that exists. I still have this huge pile of stuff to catch up on from vacation, and I have to take it in the order it came in. Deadlines are fast approaching. I should have gone in this weekend, but that's another paragraph. I am doing 8+ hours of filing. Not the big files that you just have to put on the shelf, no sir. Those are too easy. I am taking single pieces of paper that you have to look in the database to figure out which client they belong to, then what matter, then what category within the file. And I seriously have a stack of papers over two feet high. Anybody wanna help me???
Anyway, this weekend went well. Parents were still gone as of Friday and Saturday and were coming home Sunday evening. I honestly can't remember what I did on Friday night. Maybe Derek does. Ask him. I'm pretty sure I was with him. Oh wait. I did nothing. I went out to his house after work, napped on the couch until he got home, ordered pizza, and watched a movie. And that's it. More fun that it sounds, I promise. On Saturday, Derek called me when he woke up and I started getting ready to go out to his house to hang out with him and Matt as they worked on the shocks on the Eagle. That is, until he called back telling me he just found out is dad was in the ER with a kidney stone. So I rushed over to NOCH to meet him there and was there until around noon. Then we finally did make it out to work on the car, but it cancelled our plans for Mad Dogs on Sunday. Bummer, but it'll be okay and even more fun next year. I think I just relaxed the rest of the day on Saturday. On Sunday, Derek had his car in the Wheels of Grand Haven car show Downtown. That was a blast. Talked to both Brett and Ken and even ran into Mrs. Mesler from seventh grade english class. My dad came out to spend the day with us and Derek even got a second place trophey in his class out of the deal. I got sunburnt, but ah well. Much, much fun.
Well, see you all later. God bless.
~Patience serves as a protection against wrongs as clothes do against cold. For if you put on more clothes as the cold increases, it will have no power to hurt you. So in like manner you must grow in patience when you meet with great wrongs, and they will then be powerless to vex your mind. (Leonardo da Vinci)~
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July 10th, 2004
07:18 pm - It's time...
Well, I suppose I should update. Finally.
The whole family, including Derek, had a wonderful time on Beaver Island. The house is coming along and it is still as peaceful as ever. We enjoyed the island, the water, and the people. But don't listen to me tell you how wonderful it is and want to go there, too. I won't let you. The island is mine... ALL MINE!
I'm getting ahead of myself, though. Before I left, I had a very unpleasant experience. If you know me, you already know what happened, but I have decided once and for all not to have anything to do with him. Sure, we still have mutual friends, which might make things difficult, but I just need to stay away. Maybe some of what happened was my fault, and maybe it was all him. I am just sick of trying and being taken advantage of, in more ways than one. I have no real reasons to have anything to do with him, so I won't. It's that simple. And thank you to all of you who know what happened and for your prayers and being supportive. You guys are true frineds. And Brett, I won't stop you. Do what you want. :)
Also, before I left, something at least semi-good-ish happened. A good friend and former bowling team member called me. Dan has, I have been told, had a thing for me, which is what makes this not good. But it is good that he called. We were great friends when we were on the team together and always promised to stay in touch, but it hasn't been easy. We only see each other when I happen to be a the bowling alley in Grand Rapids late at night when he is working. I truly hope that there is no motive to see me other than just a frindship. When we talked, I bragged about Derek so he knows I am happliy taken, but he said nothing about his relationship status. We once talked about dating, but he just isn't my type and he seemed to understand that at the time. I hope is isn't coming to me for a second chance. When we talked, I gave him the benefit of the doubt and told him that next time I am in Grand Rapids, we would definitely have to do something, so we'll see. I don't want to have to let him down, but I am VERY happy right now, thankyouverymuch. I love you, Derek!
<<[ Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<insert:>') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.] Well, I suppose I should update. Finally.
The whole family, including Derek, had a wonderful time on Beaver Island. The house is coming along and it is still as peaceful as ever. We enjoyed the island, the water, and the people. But don't listen to me tell you how wonderful it is and want to go there, too. I won't let you. The island is mine... ALL MINE!
I'm getting ahead of myself, though. Before I left, I had a very unpleasant experience. If you know me, you already know what happened, but I have decided once and for all not to have anything to do with him. Sure, we still have mutual friends, which might make things difficult, but I just need to stay away. Maybe some of what happened was my fault, and maybe it was all him. I am just sick of trying and being taken advantage of, in more ways than one. I have no real reasons to have anything to do with him, so I won't. It's that simple. And thank you to all of you who know what happened and for your prayers and being supportive. You guys are true frineds. And Brett, I won't stop you. Do what you want. :)
Also, before I left, something at least semi-good-ish happened. A good friend and former bowling team member called me. Dan has, I have been told, had a thing for me, which is what makes this not good. But it is good that he called. We were great friends when we were on the team together and always promised to stay in touch, but it hasn't been easy. We only see each other when I happen to be a the bowling alley in Grand Rapids late at night when he is working. I truly hope that there is no motive to see me other than just a frindship. When we talked, I bragged about Derek so he knows I am happliy taken, but he said nothing about his relationship status. We once talked about dating, but he just isn't my type and he seemed to understand that at the time. I hope is isn't coming to me for a second chance. When we talked, I gave him the benefit of the doubt and told him that next time I am in Grand Rapids, we would definitely have to do something, so we'll see. I don't want to have to let him down, but I am VERY happy right now, thankyouverymuch. I love you, Derek!
<<<Insert: I just realized that the guys in the above and below paragraph are BOTH NAMED DAN! I love coincidences like that. Makes me smile.>>>
Also, an internet friend and I recently started talking agian. His computer puked so I haven't been able to talk to him. I know what you guys are thinking, but don't. He and I had many late nights chatting about boyfrined and girlfriend problems. And he is much older than I am. It's all cool. Anyway, we spent most of the evening catching up. Chatting with an old friend is always a good way to spend an evening without your boyfriend (Derek is at work right now). I've missed him. I really have.
Lets see... Work is very busy. I have been working very long, hard days. Mentally and sometimes physically exhausting. But I like my paychecks, so I have no complaints. And I actually like the people I am working with, so that makes the days much easier. We are moving soon... very soon... and it's only going to get busier. My last day is August 21 and within a week after that I move into GVSU and start classes. Much excitement about that.
Well, I'm going to go now and not write again for another month. I mean, I hope that is not the case, but I didn't intend to be nonexistant on here for all that time before either. Talk to you all soon.
~Opportunity is missed by most people because it is dressed in overalls and looks like work. (Thomas A. Edison)~
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June 11th, 2004
01:20 pm - Remembering Reagan...
I guess this is what everyone is talking about today. Not that it's a bad thing to talk about, but it is kinda gloomy, if you know what I mean. I've been at the front desk answering phones at work for about a half hour and already the majority of people calling today, especially the elderly people, find time in our rushed conversation to comment on the fact that we are still open today considering today's events, and how sad it is to see him gone. I've been watching the funeral services on the internet most of the day, especially here at the front desk. The day is pretty boring here beacuse all federal govermnemt buildings and offices are closed in rememberance of Reagan. I am too young to remember his presidency, but I think I would have liked him. The hardest thing for me is to see those around him mourn. His wife has it the hardest. Can you imagine trying to remain composed in the midst of all the pomp and circumstance and media coverage of it all? I couldn't do it.
Well, I'm posting at work again. I'm pretty sure this is against the rules, but I have all afternoon up here and I asked for work to do, but everybody says it's all done. I wish I could be working on my work, but I can't really bring a boat load of file boxes up here to work. So, I get to sit up here and do nothing all afternoon while what I need to get done sits and rots in the back room. Whatever. I get paid by the hour regardless. I hate to think of it that way, but it gets me through the day.
So, I thought I had my car fixed. Yesterday after work, it wouldn't start. I've been trying to push it to work and back every day and yesterday, it just didn't want to get me back home. So, I ignored the problem and fumed about it for a while, then called my dad. He is awesome. He came all the way in from Grand Rapids to help me figure out what was wrong. When he got here, we went to my car at work and he jacked it up to look underneath it at what he thought the problem was. He had a pretty good idea that it was the distributer cap and he was going to look at that. Turns out, I don't have a distributer at all in my car. Everything is electronic and I have what they call a coil pack or something. Well, when dad was under the car, he discovered this and was like "okay, that throws a damper on things." He twisted and tightened the spark plug wires and everything down there and just suggested that we get it back to my house where it was dry. When we got it off the jack and started it up, it ran so much better. So dad thought maybe we just needed to replace the spark plug wires and everything would be honkeydorey. Well, we did that and we even replace the spark plugs themselves, and when we were all done, it ran perfectly fine and I even took it to JJ's last night to hang out with Bobby, Lauren, and Lauren. Then, so this morning, I got in it, prayed, and turned the key, and it started, but it didn't really want to. All I know is that it is at least running, and it needs to stay that way through the weekend. I guess we'll just have to see how much it loves me. I'm definitely not feelin' the love right now, though.
Well, there seems to be a lull in phone calls right now and I need to call GVSU to get information about where and when to be for orientation this weekend. I especially need to know where to park (that is, if my car gets me there :S). Talk to all you folks later! Adios.
~Whatever else history may say about me when I'm gone, I hope it will record that I appealed to your best hopes, not your worst fears; to your confidence, rather than your doubts. My dream is that you will travel the road ahead with liberty's lamp guiding your steps and opportunity's arm guiding yoru way. (Ronald Reagan)~
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June 10th, 2004
07:14 pm - Bored and pissed off. Hope you like it.
I'm bored and ticked off about a lot of things. For your reading pleasure or displeasure. I don't really care. Denny, if you are reading this, please call me sometime. I need to see Harry Potter and Lauren and Bobby have already gone. Thanks. Bye.
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10:55 am - All about me this time.
I swore when I got this thing that I wouldn't be obessessed and post 83,000 times a day, but I found this on someone else's LJ and am curious to see how my friends would fill it out. You can do it and post it in a comment. If you don't want anyone else to read it, just let me know and I'll delete it after I read it. And please be honest. Also, I am more than willing to fill it out about you if you ask me to. That is, if you care.
What Would You Do If....
I cried:
I said I liked you:
I kissed you:
I started smoking:
I stole something:
I were hospitalized:
I ran away from home:
I got in a fight and you were there:
I went crazy:
I lied to you:
I died tomorrow:
What Do You Think About My....
Personality:
Eyes:
Face:
Hair:
Clothes:
Voice:
Humor:
Choice of music:
Mannerisms:
Family:
Would You...
Be my friend:
Tell me the truth, no matter what:
Lie to make me feel better:
Spread rumors about me:
Keep a secret if I told you one:
Loan me some cash:
Hold my hand:
Take a bullet for me:
Keep in touch:
Try and solve my problems:
Love me:
Have sex with me:
I am just killing time before work right now. I don't have to be in until noon today, but I have to work all day tomorrow. That should be fun. Biggest paycheck ever (because of the raise) coming my way next week, as well as my computer, and my sister leaving. Should be a good week. The only thing bad is that Derek has finals next week and I am going to let him study. We have talked at least once everyday since he left and I'll miss that, but I figure I'll see him in two weeks and that will rock. It is worth it to me to see him to well. He is so awesome. I almost owe it to him to give him time to study.
I have orientation/registration on Sunday and Monday. There is a fun overnight thing for Honors College students Sunday night and then Monday morning is orientaton. My first night overnight in the dorms. Should be interesting. I might get to room with my cousin Niki. She is volunteering that night. If not, I might leave the room I am supposed to be in and go to her's. The room I'll be in next year is 5 rooms down from her's. I wish I could move in right now. Even though I'd rather be looking forward to moving into MSU next year, I am still pretty excited about GVSU.
Well, if I write too much in here, I risk being obessessive. I don't want that. But I figure in a couple weeks, I'll be bored with this and post like once a month or something. Whatever. I need a shower. Gotta go.
~The most wasted of all days is one without laughter. (e e cummings)~
Current Mood: optimistic
Current Music: Natalie Cole - Don't Get Around Much Anymore
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June 9th, 2004
05:05 pm - Breakin' the rules!
Hey ya'll. I'm at work. I have to cover the front desk until we close and then lock the office up. Haven't done this since I left. It used to be my job every day. Ah well.
Not much happened today. I got up and within minutes I was talking to Derek. That always makes my day. The only thing I did before getting on the computer and talking to him was walk downstairs, pee, and brush my teeth. Overall a very good start to the day. Work was fine. Same old stuff. Managed to stay away from the dungeon all day. That's always fun. I've been here for 3 weeks now and have only been back over there once. I hate it. Plus, the owner of the building creeps me out. He's one scary old man. And his dog is even worse. Wow, this thing really is all about babble.
Tonight I plan on hanging out at home talking to Derek and writing thank you cards for my graduation gifts. Jayme gets her license today. I don't know how I feel about that. If anyone has any better plans for my life than the aforementioned, please advise. Sorry, been writing legals all day...
Well, talk to ya'll later. Maybe sooner. Whatever.
~Success is counted sweetest by those who ne'er succeed. (Emily Dickinson)~
Current Mood: mellow
Current Music: Attorneys talking on the phone around me.
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June 8th, 2004
10:23 pm - Day two.
Overall, it was a good day. Work was busy, but productive. Sue, my boss, called just before 9:30am and woke me up to ask me to come in early so she could go to her son's fifth grade graduation. She forgot about it and told me I didn't have to be in until noon. So I showered and got ready in under a half hour and was in by 10:00. More hours, which is good, but it took me a while to fully wake up. Kind of makes up for going home early yesterday.
Felt better today, but still a little groggy. After work, I was planning on going out to Bobby's open house, but Amanda called and needed to get out of the house. Sorry Bobby. I'll see you at Denny's hopefully and I will definitely talk to you about seeing the Harry Potter movie soon. I returned the cell phone that Derek's parents so graciosly got me for graduation and went shopping. I got a ton of pajamas. Even a pair of "slutty" ones that I actually look okay in. My butt just hangs out a little, I promise! :) Twas much fun.
Mom and I ordered my computer online today. For people who care, it is a Dell 5150 and that is all I really know. I am computer illiterate and just very happy I have one. Derek says it will be nice and I believe him. I can't wait for it to come in. June 16th is when they say it will. We'll see.
Well, time to go. Hard to talk on the phone and type at the same time. I'm talking to Derek right now. I love him! Sorry, I know I'm pathetic. Bye ya'll and God bless.
~There is no mistaking a real book when one meets it. It is like falling in love. (Christopher Morley)~
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/stars/thirsty.gif) refreshed
Current Music: Talking with Derek on the phone.
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June 7th, 2004
08:07 pm - First post... here goes...
So...
I finally got one of these things. I'm not sure why. I guess I am bored today. I went home from work early becasue I was so tired from my party yesterday and the heat and the sunburn got to me.
My dad came out to try to fix my car. I didn't have any idea what was wrong with it. I guess Ken is blaming Brett, which works for me cause I don't have a clue either way. But, the point is, he came out from GR to at least look at it before we pay someone else to do it and it started right up for him. The other day, it didn't even start, let a alone run right. But for him, and then for me when I got home from work, it started fine and idled smoothly. Whatever. I think it's possessed.
This thing is all about babble, I guess. Nobody cares what I write on here. Going to bed now. I'll babble more tomorrow probably. Later y'all.
~While the fates permit, live happily; life speeds on with hurried step, and with winged days the wheel of the headlong year is turned. (Seneca)~
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Current Music: Kenny Loggins - The Kind of Fool Love Makes
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